„We both had done the math, and Kelly added it all up. She knews she had to let me go. I added it up, knew that I‘d lost her. Cos I was never gonna get off that island. I was gonna die there, totally alone. I mean, I was gonna get sick or I was gonna get injured or something.
The only choice I had, the only thing I could control was when and how and where that was gonna happen. So, I made a rope. And I went up to the summit to hang myself. But I had to test it, you know? Of course. You know me. And the weight of the log snapped the limb of the tree. So I couldn’t even kill myself the way I wanted to. I had power over nothing.
And that’s when this came over me like a warm blanket. I knew, somehow that I had to stay alive. Somehow. I had to keep breathing, even though there was no reason to hope. And all my logic said that I would never see this place again. So that’s what I did. I stayed alive. I kept breathing. Then one day that logic was proven all wrong, because the tide came in, gave me a sail. And now, here I am. I‘m back… in Memphis, talking to you. I have ice in my glass. And I‘ve lost her all over again. I‘m so sad that I don’t have Kelly. But I‘m so gratful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow, the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?“ Weiterlesen
I thougt, I was on my way and did things right, but then it kicked me – again, and again. I was not sure, if I kicked it before and if I had a choice to kick it or to kick it not. I only tried to be honest (especially with myself), but it kicked me – again and again. Then, when I looked back, it showed me things I did not right and times when I was not trusting in it (also in myself). I tried to do it better next time, but again it kicked me. Weiterlesen